waking up on the wrong side of the bed...

i wonder if i did... not today in partcular, but at the beginning of this year... 01.01.2006. CRAP!

this year has been one sucky year for me... two deaths in a year, well i expected one but not this recent one. it was a total shocker... my uncle, dad's one and only brother passed away almost two weeks ago. i thought, well more like i hope he could beat it because he had been a strong fighter, but he lost... he lost to one of the things that people fear oh-so-much nowadays...CANCER...

the weekend that i planned to be the biggest gig week of this year had to be ended with such a big loss in my life. my uncle had always been supportive, despite some moments where he did say some bad things about my family, maybe he didn't mean it, maybe he's doin it as a motivation for us to fight for a better life... those things are just memories that would keep me fighting for what i want in life.

my uncle's death had made me realize that life is full of surprises, well not all surprises are good. you'll never know what would come your way. in my uncle's case, he's not a smoker and he doesn't drink. he's the most health concious person i've ever met. and yet, he has lung cancer.
realization leads to a new year's resolution... from now on, i'll take every opportunity i have to do what i want. at least if it's time for me to go, i'll go happy and satisfied. life's like that.

- crazeeazz -

it's been a while...

yeah, it has been a while since i last posted... been very busy. well at least my lifelogger account is a lil more updated than this... but still... old reads are good reads too... hang in there people...

i went home pretty late yesterday... well, not da latest but it waz late... but, i was rather tired than hungrywhen i went home... not hungry? dat's so not me... neways, i went 2 hang out in my hsemates' room... we chatted abt our childhood n i realised wat a bad ass i m...i'm hot tempered... yep, true... n i beatup a couple of pplwhen i waz bk in skool... amazingly, i nvr got in2 trouble... i wonder y...

bk in primary skool, there waz this guy, sanjit... he's da big bully of da skool... n i waz actually kinda afraid 2 go 2 skool coz he likes 2 push me around n hit me n stuff... i told my mom n she this is wat she told me, "beat him back la! apa mao takut?" n so i did! well i didn't dare at 1st, but then i got so angry 1 day dat i actually did it... n he nvr dare bully me again... hahah... i will always remember dat day... so now we're frenz... hahaha... dat 'gundu'

da second time i beat some1 up is coz he said somethin abt my name... my classmate eric... like his name is so special... cheh! neways it waz kinda shockin coz i just dashed 2wards him n brab his shirt n beat him up... hahah... ganas? yea... i just can't control myself when i'm angry! hahah... then i realised dat i kinda ruined his uniform when i grabbed his shirt coz all of da buttons were gone... haha... dun mess with me dude... :D

i also threw stuff 2 my boss' son's face once... it waz my 1st day @ work... n for all u know, i'm a banana... so he waz bitchin with his fren abt me in mandarin, sayin dat i'm a "malay kid wanabe" n stuff... bitch! u dun even know me! i'm a banana but i understand wat u're sayin, stooped! n so i just threw da keychains dat i waz holdin 2wards him n walked out of the workplace! hahah... satisfied dat is... da nxt day his dad called me n asked me y i left n i told him 2 ask his son... n he paid me 40 bucks fer da 2 hours dat i lasted there... :D

n dat day, i almost slapped da sales b'atch in topshop coz of da same reason... she such a b'atch!!!!!!!!!! B'ATCH! if i wasn't workin, then i wud've bashed her up oredi... stooped!
come 2 think of it... it's really funny though, da stuff i did when i waz younger... n all da ppl i beat up bcame my close frenz. yep... hahah... close frenz... even my sis... well i didn't beat her up... but i kicked her door once n made a hole through it... hahahaha... farnee... guess i waz really naughty, n i still am... so dun get on my bad side if u dun wana get bashed up

peace out!

-crazeeazz-

my obsession...

music dat is... can't live without it!!! what's on my playlist rite now??? stuff dat i haven't been listenin to fer a while now, stuff dat i used to listen to after i got over BSB and b4 i got hooked to LP... hehe... len, lit, sky, swirl 360, silverchair, sum 41, semisonic, travis, prodigy, no doubt!!, and the list goes on and on... hahah... i miss my old pc... all my treasures r in there... maybe dat's y it died... info overload... hehe... well gotta continue dlin now... wanna get bk all my old stuff while i still hav the time to do it...

do i or don't i?!?!

well i think i do, but sometimes i think i don't... Wat the hell... hehe... u guys must b wonderin wat i'm talkin abt rite? it's my job... yep, u heard me... MY JOB! i hate it at times, but then, it's better than da 9-5 office work dat i've intended 2 avoid... but fashion's just not my thing u know... i'd rather spend my time kickin ballz (not dat ballz) than to dress up n put on make up... money wise, i'd rather eat than buy clothes or groomin prods... eek... it's okay dat i'm ugly, at least i dun die of starvation... heheh... food is essential to this crazeeazz, if u know wat i mean :D yea, so sports it is... i'm not sayin dat i'm good at it, nor m i good at writin abt sports, but it's my niche... i'm willin 2 learn... n this, i would give up food for... hahah... guess i'll learn it from Malaysian Today, next sem... thx sarah fer helpin me out... ttyl...

-crazeeazz-

i love my blog...

COZ IT'S BLACK! yea... i can't make my LL black like this... i'm a dummy when it comes 2 it stuff... heheh... name je budak MMU... hey i failed my C++ man... basic stuff i know how 2 do la... especially goin on9... i rule at dat :D since i like this blog so much (though i stopped bloggin in it fer months oredi...) i've decided 2 continue it... more personal stuff will b blogged here coz not many ppl know abt this blog. oni close frenz... as fer my other craps, especially pix of da crazee stuff dat i do, i'll post em on my LL... da url... http://crazeeazz.lifelogger.com yep... so now u can see wat i do when i'm bored... or at certain times when a bright idea just pops in2 my head... well it happens a lot coz i hate bein bored and i always hav somethin 2 do... no i'm not a workaholic. it's just that sittin around doin nothin tires me... dat sucks! so i'd rather go out n kia2... unless if i'm sleepin :P aight, bk 2 work then...

c ya when i c ya

- crazeeazz -

come 'n go

no, no... not touch 'n go! heheh... newayz, 2day's my last day at Seventeen... i'm so sad 2 leave, but then again... i hav 2 get bk 2 skool... expn is waitin fer me... heheh... yeah, yeah, i'm dreamin. but dreamin is what makes u sucessful. if u dun dream, u won't even hav any idea wat u wud do. a dream is the point where u hav 2 get 2, yer dream is ur goal. ok, ok... put stop!

bk 2 my last day story... yeah it is sad 2 leave. i've had such a great time here. there's the bunch of crazy ppl, sarah, mable, jayen and daphany... n not 2 ferget seema n yi hua who is always askin me 2 say somethin... heheh... yeah i'm kinda quiet... (it might b unbelievable 2 those ppl who know me out there, n no i'm not sick!). i hav lots of firsts here. my 1st photoshoot (thx 2 mable), my 1st christmas party (oso thx 2 mable, heheh), my 1st piece that is published, my 1st time goin out loanin n returnin... n not 2 ferget, my 1st time havin such crazy colleagues, who are more of frenz than colleagues. i'm gonna miss ya'll sooo much! so near yet so far... maybe we might see each other in jaya... hahah.

well done with workin, goin bk 2 skool, hence, the ROAD TRIP! the planz which i can say "has officially gone wayyy crazeeee!!" well it waz originally planned fer 3d/2n which turned out to b 4d/3n n it ended up as a 5d/4n trip... r we talkin crazee or wat?? hmm... yeah we r... as usual... ok my dearest pahang, u better b prepared fer us... or malaysia won't hav a son called pahang anymore... heheh...

**2 daze 2 2006, 17 daze 2 ROAD TRIP!!! i'm still sad though :(

-sad n crazee-

once insaned, alwayz insane...

insaned?? does dat word even exist?!?! nvm, nvm... insanianz can use any word they want... which leads to... our ROAD TRIP updates!!!

remember in one of my previous posts, we cudn't decide where 2 stay? kuantan or cherating? well we've decided 2 stay in both kuantan n cherating... crazee? yep, i know... n we also extended the duration of the trip from 3D/2N to 4D/3N... dat's even crazier! this means dat i hav 2 skip 4 daze of classes (i'd probably take 2 daze of MC though)!!

since the stay in kuantan wud b free, we'll b stayin in a hotel in cherating. the original plan waz dat we're gonna camp on da beach(2 cut cost) but we cudn't find tents... 2 bad... it wud'da been da bomb!!!

aight then, planz r set... we just need 2 plan out the stuff we wud wanna do there... drop by terengganu or somethin... check in soon!

**9 daze 2 2006, 24 daze 2 ROAD TRIP!!!!!

-I.N.S.A.N.E. Inc.-

merry christmas!!!... Seventeen style!

MERRY CHRISTMAS PPL!!! heheh... it's 7.30 and i'm still in da office... it's fer a good cause though... hahah... we just finished our christmas partae... it waz fun... a very happy day 2day,... my first christmas partae... besides da 1 we had when uncle bob waz bk here like 9 years ago n da time when i joined toaster fer her family's christmas dinner when i didn't manage 2 get a bus ticket home... thx every1(u know who u r)! n also thx fer da prezzies!!!

HAV A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS YA'LL!!!

**10 daze 2 2006, 25 daze 2 ROAD TRIP!!! n still countin down...

-christmassy crazee-

wut???

yesterday i waz sittin in ma room, finishin up my buyin guide fer march. while doin dat, i decided 2 check out if jay chou's as good as what my frenz described him 2 b... n so i listen 2 a few songs and amazingly i got hooked up to a song! tat 1 particular song, i listened over n over again fer about an hour or so... it's such a bubbly, happy song... though i dunno wat's he singin abt, but the beat is so happy-like dat i just can't help it. hope it's not a song abt some ppl dyin or somethin... then it wud b so devastatin. neways, i can officially say tat the songs r kinda good... really! hmmm... if i know what the songs r abt then i might b able 2 comment more! heheh...

11 daze 2 2006, 26 daze 2 ROAD TRIP!!!

-crazee s can b-