it's been just that for last week, after i came back from new zealand. i finally got a full 6 hours sleep yesterday. well it's not like that'll be enough, but at least it's a full 6 hours, with no dreams nor a single sign of conciousness. guess that's how tired i am. still, i need to get back to the 'all-smiles me'... i hate being the 'cranky ol me'... that's just NOT who i am.
i've snapped at a couple of people this week... yesterday, i snapped at the 'new bitch in town'... she made a stoopid remark about somethin that didn't have anythin to do with me in the first place... excuse me for being concern about my friend... guess that's why you don't have many... 'REAL' friends that is... mirror check! potsy 1 - NBT 0!
well it's back to work for me... toodles!
-cr@zee@zz-
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
2 years, 4 months and 29 days
It's been that long since I last posted... It's either that I've been too happy in life or I've been too busy to post... I say the latter! I hadn't been all smiles like I used to. It's hard to be when there's so much shit happening, but that's life. Isn't it?
My last post says two deaths in a year... well this year is just as bad... Mama left us last December and Uncle Ben, he left us just 18 days ago... too bad I couldn't attend his funeral though. Not that I don't want to... despite the disagreement between us, he's still my uncle... and his departure was a great loss... I wish this was all just a dream. "Please give me my mama back!!!" was what went through my mind when I broke down two weeks after her departure. I really miss her!
Despite all the sorrows, I'm looking forward to starting the new chapter of my life. I know I'm comfortable where I am right now, but that's what makes me want to leave. I don't want to be comfortable. I want new challenges! Challenges that will help me succeed once I've encountered them. I will be fine, I know I will.
For those of you who are worried of my love life... my beloved sisters in particular, just shug it off your shoulders will ya? It's the last thing on my mind right now. But FYI, I'm looking. There's no harm perving on guys, is there? I'm just looking, I won't touch them. I promise! Might as well enjoy my youth doing crazee shit while I still can :P
Till then...
-cr@zee@zz-
My last post says two deaths in a year... well this year is just as bad... Mama left us last December and Uncle Ben, he left us just 18 days ago... too bad I couldn't attend his funeral though. Not that I don't want to... despite the disagreement between us, he's still my uncle... and his departure was a great loss... I wish this was all just a dream. "Please give me my mama back!!!" was what went through my mind when I broke down two weeks after her departure. I really miss her!
Despite all the sorrows, I'm looking forward to starting the new chapter of my life. I know I'm comfortable where I am right now, but that's what makes me want to leave. I don't want to be comfortable. I want new challenges! Challenges that will help me succeed once I've encountered them. I will be fine, I know I will.
For those of you who are worried of my love life... my beloved sisters in particular, just shug it off your shoulders will ya? It's the last thing on my mind right now. But FYI, I'm looking. There's no harm perving on guys, is there? I'm just looking, I won't touch them. I promise! Might as well enjoy my youth doing crazee shit while I still can :P
Till then...
-cr@zee@zz-
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