i'm just loanin, the stuff ain't mine!!

loaning is fun? yeah it is coz u get 2 carry so many shoppin bags filled with branded goods but the bad thing in tat u dun own em. n the other bad thing is tat ppl keep on staring at u like u're an alien or somethin! i m not an alien!! NO!!!

well it waz my 1st time goin out loanin fer the fashion spread photoshoot. we had 2 go 2 28 stores in 1U n a few stores in MV... when we were done, the car waz filled with stuff as if i waz on a lottery winnin shoppin spree. kewl! heheh... but then again, i dun own any of the stuff... sheekh!

ooo n not 2 ferget, somethin funny happened when i waz loanin in 1U. i waz carryin huge guess and a caractere paperbags an i waz walkin towards UCOB from caractere, this guy who waz promotin the HSBC credit card came up 2 me n asked me if i would like 2 apply fer a cr card n i went like "no thx, i dun hav any money"... n the guy gave me a weird stare... i think he waz thinkin like... "u're carryin a whole bunch of branded stuff n u tell me u hav no $$?? wat da &*^%???" hahah... sorry... it's not ma fault dude... the stuff ain't mine...

neways it waz a wonderful experience, just tat i can't stant all the stares. i shall stress it again... i dun own any of the stuff fer pete's sake!! :D

i'll continue in my nxt post... c ya in a minute!

it's been a while...

true 2 da title... it has been a while since i last posted... probably because i dun hav the time 2 post... there's been loanin, returnin, writin, and shootings 2 do... but i managed... hahah... surprisingly, it wasn't tirin at all! probably it's coz i hav so much fun doin it.

neways, there r stuff that i wanted 2 post a while ago but i didn't so i'm gonna post it in my nxt post... which will start now...

ooo yeah...

i fergot 2 add... yesterday i went fer lunch break at da curve... heheh... i tot tat lunch break is just an hour but i actually went fer a 3 hour lunch break with my colleagues... crazy but cool... hahah... i never expected dat

worst day ever??? nahhhh.....

yesterday... hahah... it waz kinda like a funny day... it waz a bad day but it's good in a way... gee... doez tat even make sense???

newayz... it all started after work... it waz gonna rain... i had 2 go down 2 pudu 2 get ticks 2 go bk 2day... u know how the bus system in m'sia sucks n it's hard 2 get last minute ticks on fridays... i HATE dat!

but it already started drizzlin when i waz half way through 2 da bus stop... it'z okay though... a lil rain could nvr hurt me... things were okay till after i got my ticks... DAMN!!!

ooo yeah, before i ferget 2 mention... i kinda rolled up ma pants when i waz in da bus n i waz walkin around like a fisherman 2 pudu... heheh... (tat'z the good part of da bad day coz i get 2 do somethin new... b more adventurous... muahahahaha... more like somethin cacated or my fav... SESATED!!!)

movin 2 da bad part... after i got my ticks... it waz rainin my ass!!! the rain waz so heavy!!!! but i decided 2 walk neways... no rain can stop me... so there i waz, walkin in a rolled up pants, a wobbly umbrella and a pool of water around my feet (meanin tat my shoes were filled with water)!!! ewwwww..... tat sucks big time!! i can't stand wearin wet shoes... so i did another sesated thing... i went in2 watson's, bought a 5 ringgit beach slipper (thank god it'z blue) and changed shoes in da middle of da street, under da rain...!!! hahah... i shud've taken a video coz i know i looked ridiculous... but i dun care, nothin can b worse than walkin in wet shoes...

at least i got my ticks... i didn't go home soakin wet, i had McD's and i had fun! heheh...

i'm CRAZY!!! i KNOW!!

-CR@ZY@ZZ-

** p/s : i know i used pink fer this post... hahah... i wouldn't usually use tat color rite... neways... it had been a crazy day, so y not just another crazy thing 2 do... SESAT!!!

i love my job....

woohoooo...!!! work is fun... heheh... besides bein able 2 go on9... hehehe... yesterday waz my 1st photoshoot... in lim kok wing... tat place is awsome... i know, i know... i used 2 kutuk them when i waz an MMUan... of course i will... hidup MMU!!! hahah... newayz... we had 2 walk around the campus n the photoshoot went on fer like 8 hours! surprisingly, i wazn't tired at all... maybe it'z bcoz i had lotz of fun... it waz awsome! thx Mable fer dat wonderful xperience... n not 2 ferget thx Seventeen fer takin me in! awsome!

work... more like bein paid 2 go on9...

heheh... it is true though... yesterday waz ma 1st day of work... in Seventeen mag... jgn jealous... but then i'm oni an intern... no biggie... neways, bk 2 yesterday... i only had 2 do 2 pieces actually... then all i did waz read magz n surf da net... thank god there waz su yen 2 chat wif me! thanx gurl... if it weren't fer u i'd b dead by now... hahah... sesatednye...

well neways... lets c how my 2nd day goes... hope i hav more stuff 2 do 2day... hahah... this is the 1st time i'm askin fer more things 2 do though... yeah... fer a good cause... shower me with more knowledge ppl!!! i wana learn,learn, learn more stuff...

that's all fer now... will post again b4 i leave... that is if i dun hav anythin 2 do...

peace out!

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry daddy... I really didn't mean it :(

lettin go...

... *i can't describe it* ...

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yesterday, i had my first ride on an ambulance... *sigh* i've always thought that i will go through this experience while gathring info fer news or my job.... i've nvr expected 2 go through this with a loved one. but i'm glad i waz the one who went to the hospital with him. i want to be with g'pa while he's sick... i wana b there with him, take care of him... at this point of time, i dunno wat else to do but hope fer da best.

i had great memories with g'pa. that i thank god for. i will nvr ferget da times i spent with g'pa. you will always remain in my heart.

2day, my uncles and aunts includin momy had 2 make an important decision... watever their decision is, i just dun wanna c g'pa suffer... i m prepared fer him to go but i'm not prepared to see him suffer... that's what made me cannot stop cryin. i dun want g'pa 2 b in pain...

plz god, do take care of g'pa ... ease his pain so that he won't suffer from it.

lets just pray....

21, full of fun...

i once saw this phrase on a keychain... it is partly true though... but fer me it's not totally filled with all da fun in da world. i officially turned 21 this mth... a wonderful thing though coz of all da $$ i got... hahah... hey money is essential fer da time bein u know... but the most priceless gift i received was my cam, a SONY Cybershot H1... jangan jealous you... :P

however, turning 21 also made me realize that i have many obligations that i have to fulfill. many things happened in this month... my finals, daddy's bro found out that he has a tumor in his lungs, g'pa was hospitalised coz he fell down, and now... family conflicts.

i did a lot of thinkin when i was cleanin the kitchen fer mum... it made me lost track of time and believe it or not... i finished cleanin da kitchen at 3am... a record fer me... hahah... i nvr realize that i could be that hardworking... :D neways, i decided that i might not get a job fer this 3 mths break... i'll help mom, take care of g'pa, and help dad, b his co-pilot when he has 2 bring his bro 2 UH. n aunt marg... mommy dun need 2 gimme allowance fer takin cake of g'pa... i never depend on my parents fer $$... i oni ask them fer $$ when i'm desprate (though it rarely happens)... money may be essential but it's not everythin u know... g'pa is my g'pa, my responsibility too!

all the thinkin and what happened today made me realized that respect is not given to us freely but it should be earned. R-E-S-P-E-C-T, find out what it means to me, R-E-S-P-E-C-T, take care, TCB... sorry, sorry... i got carried away... man dat song rocks!! neways, i came to that conclusion after losin my respect fer my unc n aunts... not all of 'em but some of 'em. seein how they treat g'pa n mommy, they really dun deserve my respect. though i would not show it out coz that would be disrespectful and make mom n dad hav a bad rep, but somewhere deep down my heart... i just know... THEY DON'T DESERVE MY RESPECT. if u're messin with my family then u're messin with me... u can bully me all u want but never ever touch those people i love!

some of u who read this may think that i'm rude, disrespectful n maybe a b'atch... go ahead... think whatever u want to think... it doesn't matter to me... coz i dun care abt what u think... all that matters to me are those people who are worth to be cared abt. mommy, i support u 100%... though at times u might b wrong (then i'll tell u off), we're human beings... we all make mistakes... i know i did... MANY TIMES!

well there isn't much that i can do but i'll try my best. one thing's fer sure... we will not be taken fer granted... i'll make sure of that.